It was scary, and I knew what it was like to be an unemployed actress again.

So, not only am I panicking over the weekend if I need to know my lines, but also if can I get the kids to the zoo. Can I even go to church? I was asking for certain things that would allow me to plan my life a little better.

CBS started to confiscate our packages and mail as a safety procedure. A lot of packages that people send for the holidays and to our kids we can't open. A lot of times they are from overseas. It's very upsetting at times.

There is really a whole new appreciation when you leave and then come back.

I was moaning and grieving as if I lost one of my own children. It was probably one of the most real feelings I ever had on the show. I was just sitting there wailing with no lines. I was beat after that storyline.

It was scary, and I knew what it was like to be an unemployed actress again.

The only problem with the way they do my character is that they have her get redeemed too early.

We were led to a pediatric ophthalmologist. It's a hard date for me, April 14, 1998. The doctor came back from the examining room and told us she had tumors in both eyes.

If I was a bad character that got away with murder like we see on other shows, I do not think I would like it because that sends a message that you can do these horrible things and never pay for it.

There was a storyline this year where Taylor lied to Brooke. It was supposed to be set up in a way that I was so outraged by her that I let it stay. I thought that was human, which was great.

I told him that I can play it if he wanted to write it, and I would be willing to try and go there emotionally. I did not know as an actress if I would be able to get there, because when you feel really deep emotions or pain, you don't want to go back there.

One girl was helped from my appearance on the show, and I swore I would not keep quiet again. When you talk about things that are embarrassing or devastating, obviously you can help people when you do.

I have a really great relationship with God. I pray. I read the Bible.

My children are the focal point of my life. I was asking for a little more time to spend with them.

The main concern was making sure the kids didn't get caught in the middle.

I kind of thought the writers were starting to take Taylor and make her kind of down and dirty.

Unfortunately, since the Sept. 11 tragedy, our business is not doing too well.

I had just won the lawsuit against Melrose Place.

We share responsibility. It's important to have a good spouse; that's where I sympathize with single parents.

In September, I left the show. We were going through discussions and negotiations, and I had been on the show for about 11 years, and there were some things that I was asking for that I didn't feel were the moon or the stars.

I really like to communicate to my fans. I have a fan club president who I've had for over 15 years.

We cannot really communicate with our fans.

The house seemed so empty without him. And I thought about the life we'd been building together for all that time. I realized I was on the brink of losing it all. It just scared me into reality.

Bodybuilding is much like any other sport. To be successful you must dedicate yourself 100 to your training diet and mental approach.

Cash is the one gift everyone despises and no one turns down.

I do take my work seriously and the way to do that is not to take yourself too seriously.

I had the privilege of playing an angel on 'Touched by an Angel' for many years - almost two decades, and we would deliver a message on the show. The message was that God loves them, and before filming every scene, we would come together and pray.

Challenge is nothing more than a seed of opportunity.

I can't even tell you the anxiety I get from being around those cameras!

If a composer could say what he had to say in words he would not bother trying to say it in music.

Only disaster can follow divided counsels and opposing wills.

I'm an athlete rep, so I'll be available if they need me for anything.

I believe that what we are fighting here is not just a small group of people who have hijacked a religion, but it is a civilization bent on destroying ours.

Sometimes problems dont require a solution to solve them instead they require maturity to outgrow them.

Hear reason or she will make you feel her.

I'm the person that I always was, but in terms of how I approach my living, I'm not the same person at all. At all. I've buried a child, I've ended a marriage, and the grandson that I was raising is now grown. My family has totally shifted.

England produced Shakespeare, and the British Empire the six-shilling novel.

I want to push myself.

I belong to Russian literature, but I am an American citizen, and I think it's the best possible combination.

I close my eyes thinking that there is nothing like an embrace after an absence nothing like fitting my face into the curve of his shoulder and filling my lungs with the scent of him.

It's funny how the ruthless, murderous gangster has really been romanticized by the media. I mean, I grew up watching the 'Godfathers' and 'Scarface,' and they were the coolest. They're just really interesting stories with great characters. They're rock stars.

Grief is not a disorder a disease or a sign of weakness. It is an emotional physical and spiritual necessity the price you pay for love. The only cure for grief is to grieve.

The only time I ever appeared in the 'Enquirer' was for a piece about people who let their hair grow gray. I guess I'm not much of a wild child.

Self-consciousness can destroy a performance. Getting rid of that is always good.

No nation which has kept the commandments of God has ever perished, but I say to you that once freedom is lost, only blood - human blood - will win it back.

A person without a sense of humor is like a wagon without springs. It's jolted by every pebble on the road.

Israel must be like a mad dog, too dangerous to bother.