I promise you nothing is as chaotic as it seems. Nothing is worth your health. Nothing is worth poisoning yourself into stress, anxiety, and fear.
Fear, stress or anxiety as well as freedom and happiness all start within ourselves. We decide how we handle things and which meaning we give to what happens to us. What is helpful to learn is, that you cannot control what is outside your reach but what you can steer is, how to respond to it in order to stay healthy, optimistic and to keep you inner peace.